Dear Husband,
I know you might not want to hear my voice or see me right now, which is understandable, but I hope you get to read this letter. Maybe this is the wrong time for me to express my gratitude to you for choosing me among the other ladies out there. But after the fight, I realized I didn’t deserve a gentleman like you. After the unbecoming show I displayed this morning, I can’t help but stop thinking of how much I’m loved by you, which I don’t truly deserve. You’re indeed a gentleman. Your reaction to what I did this morning still keeps me awestruck. I count myself lucky to be married to you. Besides the One who made us, my supreme happiness is the conviction that I’m loved by you. The very first day I met you remains a constant replay in my memory and I bless the day life made me meet a man like you. Our first encounter might not have been a smooth ride but I’m glad I’m here doing life with you—the one who chose a woman like me.
Sweet Husband, I don’t even know where to start. I’m aware I’ve not been my best lately and I’m sincerely sorry. I don’t even have the words to express how truly sorry I am because ‘sorry’ definitely isn’t the right word. You’ve constantly shown me sweetness but in return, I gave you a bitter drink that I never knew I had within my custody. If anyone had told me years ago that I would ever do such a thing, I would have emphatically said, ‘No, it’s not possible!’ But here I am, messed up by my unthinkable impossibilities. I’m so ashamed of myself. I’m sincerely sorry for betraying your trust.  I give no excuses for my actions. I acted unruly and I deserve to be punished. Just tell me what to do to make you forgive me—anything at all—and I’ll do just that.
I can’t help but wonder what you’re doing now, probably crying over the disgusting actions of your wife. My husband, I’m sorry; I truly am. I never knew I could do such a thing. It came as a shock to me too. Please forgive me. Don’t cry over someone like me. I don’t deserve your tears. Please, your tears are so precious to me. I can remember the first time I saw you shed tears; it was during our wedding ceremony when daddy walked me down the aisle to hand me over to you. As I walked down and I saw the tears trickle down your face I knew you were so overwhelmed with joy that our most anticipated day was finally coming to a realization. And as I got closer to you, I saw a man who would move the whole world for me. My heart couldn’t hold it in, so I ran into your embrace, grateful to God who gave me you. But today’s case isn’t the story. I caused you pain, which is probably making you cry. I don’t think I can ever forgive myself. The same woman who made you cry out of joy also brought the reverse. I can’t believe myself either. I truly desire that you aren’t crying because of me. I love you more to see you waste your tears because of my foolish acts.
What I did was totally out of place and unbecoming of the wife of a never-disturbing man like you. All the years I’ve known you, you’ve always brought me joy and peace. You don’t deserve what I did. Not at all. I regret talking down on you and making you feel less of a man. I sincerely wish I’d not said those shattering words. I’m so sorry, my king. Today and forever, I promise to always be in total submission to your leadership and never to question your authority. I promise to work hard to be a better wife to you. I promise to live out the name you always call me, ‘My happiest reason’. I promise to always bring you happiness and joy and to never cause you pain again. I promise to be that wife you married on January 22nd, 2023, and more. I promise to be the reason why you’ll always be glad you’re a man and most importantly, my husband.
My Crown, my hero, my Lord, my love, my shining armor, my priest, my president, my supporter, my joy, my top fan, my favorite cheerleader, my encouragement, my book Lord, my amazing cook, my hardworking man, the one who made me a woman, the father to our unborn kids, my everything. I learned years ago that with true love, high, challenging mountains can be leveled. Please, let’s fight this together and win. This shouldn’t drown out our love, please. I don’t know what I’ll do if you give me silent treatments or refuse to eat my food. Please, I’m begging you to forgive me and accept my apology. I don’t deserve it, I know but please, I need your forgiveness. I can’t sleep in this room alone. I need you beside me. Your presence is like a light that darkness can’t resist. You bring light to my world and make me safe. Please, my happiness, listen to my pleas. Every fiber of me is in love with you and all that you represent.  You’re my sun, my moon and all my stars.
Few months into our relationship, mom sat me down and asked me if I truly wanted to get married to you. I said ‘Yes’ because you were my only option. No other man could be compared to you. I knew it was you and I’m grateful to God that I made such a decision to follow you. Until tomorrow, getting married to you will always remain among my greatest accomplishments. I do not take your love for granted. With you, love has an entirely different meaning, which is incomprehensible. I want to live each day knowing that you’re mine. I sincerely hope you accept my apology. I can’t wait to be in your warm embrace.
Yours forever,
Your happiest reason.
